I hope eventually, by the grace of God, to move on and leave the past behind completely, but 25 years is a long time and the memories are still there. I have only had one person I could really talk to about it, (thank God for him), and part of me wants to shout out to all those I used to call friends, for understanding and empathy. The Lord has permitted them to break off contact with me, which is, ultimately, for my good. But only the individual heart knows its own pain, suffering, sorrow and joy - no other can truly understand it (Proverbs 14:10), and we have to bring everything to Jesus,
because He alone is here, has infinite time, and patience, and love.
The eternal God is your refuge,
and underneath are the everlasting arms.
He will drive out your enemies before you,
saying, ‘Destroy them!’ (Deuteronomy 33:27)