About

I'm 53 years young, English, and live in Germany. I'm a mother of 6 children, one of whom is working in Scotland, one of whom is in the German army and four of whom are waiting for me at home with Jesus. I turned direction 32 years ago and began following Jesus in 1984. He is the reason I am alive, sane and didn't turn alcoholic, bulimic, drug addictive, suicidal, or pedlar of my body, any of which I might well have become if He hadn't broken into my life. I used to be an inveterate liar, cheat, flirt, flinger of foul language and a compulsive eater who stole food from the fridge, regardless who it belonged to. I'm not perfect, but in Him I'm an overcomer and am overcoming more and more. In other words, a work in progress.

I put no faith in the System in any established area, wherever it shows itself; especially in religion (of any kind). Man left to himself must manipulate and organise his world to compensate for his lack of divine Life, but when that Life leaves the System, all the latter produces is death.

12 years ago, I left organised religion for a journey following Jesus outside institutional church and this blog was first started to help me process the above journey deeper into Him.

Since writing the above, the Lord showed me that I had put harmony and peace in my home on a higher level than obedience to Him, and I repented of my fear and compromise. The resulting changes in me caused a great shaking in my family, as a result of which, my marriage fell apart. One might think that obedience to God would result in a healed marriage, and those who think that everything will immediately go well with us if we follow Jesus, will stumble over this. Looking back, I realise that I have made many mistakes and have often been disobedient to the Holy Spirit. But God has given me grace; there is light at the end of the tunnel. I am now happily remarried. When we allow Him to lead, He brings us into the place of His choosing. I am thankful to God for His mercy and faithfulness to one who has so often been judgemental, unbelieving and disobedient.